Weight Watchers be damned!!!
I suppose this is the beginning of the end for me really...i went to a going away lunch on friday, with the best intentions as far as dieting is concerned...and then...there was texas toast. on the side of my plate...all buttery and grilled and garlicky and HOW, how i ask you, are you supposed to leave that alone? so one bite lead to the whole thing and then i was like "oh, hell, i screwed up, gimme that chocolate cake!!" and i actually ate the damn chocolate cake! can you believe it? and all of the frosting...and i thought i would throw up...but for once in almost four weeks, i was totally full...and it was awesome. i had a bowl of cereal for dinner and then went to bed happy...was a great day.
then yesterday...again with the best intentions crap...decided to try a new italian place and swore to myself i would get a dried up shriveled little chicken breast with no flavor or sauce and make myself love it. then there was the menu...sooooo many beautiful things in huge portions...and i got this tilapia with cream-crab sauce and potatoes and carrots and so much butter than as soon as i ate it, it all came sliding out of my ass...truth! I ran to the potty and there was my dinner, but i was so happy to have eaten something yummy and non-weight watchers (read: not flavored with essence of styrofoam chest) that i just smiled, flushed my dinner and went out to finish it up!! yippee for me!
on wednesday, skinny little ellen can bite me...i may not have lost this week, but by damn, i didnt try to kill anyone and eat them, so the week is a success overall.
kisses!
